[For Liebgott]

[thewordofweb]

The obituary had been burning a hole in my pocket for weeks now. The couple of them. I'd been keeping them from Joe, tucked away in secret places he would never look, thinking I would tell him everything over dinner one night, some throwaway mention as I brushed my thumb against his palm, a soft '...so about our future, I may not be in it?' That's not going to happen. First came that fucking uniform and then Joe got his brain near-stolen.

So I've left it. I left it amidst the piles of his homework and I went to find Blair to try and find some absolution over my being such a coward. Now, I have to go back. It's been hours and if he hasn't found it, then I'm in trouble from being gone during dinner. If he has found it, well, I don't know what to expect, but I don't think it's going to be good.

I lean my head on the door for what feels like eternity. It's only five minutes. I count quietly, one-one-thousand...

This is going to take as much bravery as any jump and I push the door open and close it behind myself, just standing there and waiting to see what's going to happen.

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"I want you to shut up for once."

Usually, talking dirty, talking about it, it gets Joe going real good, but, today, this time, he doesn't need any of the other shit. He just needs Web underneath him, the warm press of bodies. He just needs to feel that good for a while.

He tugs his shirt over his head and lets it drop, already toeing out of his boots and starting on his pants.

"Just get into bed."

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I nod and go quiet at that, sliding and shuffling under the covers and letting the whisper of blankets comfort me as I wait for him. I sit up and wait to coax him down with me, wanting to feel him as close as he gets and not let him go. If that means I don't say a word, I won't. Not outside the needy blessings I want to rain down on him.

"You look so good," I praise quietly, a slight choke in my voice yet.

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"Not as good as you."

It's the easiest thing in the world to slip between Web's legs, reaching for lube with one hand as he leans down to kiss him, free hand supporting his weight.

"I'm still pissed at you," he mumbles, hair tumbled across his forehead.

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I falter at that, a sharp wave and a roil in my stomach assaulting me and I lean up to kiss him, palm gently brushing that hair off his forehead and thumb stroking the warmth of his cheek. "Please don't be," I beg. "I'll be careful. I promise I will be."

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"I'll get over it. I promise."

He shifts, weight onto one hip as he spreads lube on his fingers and reaches down between them, rubbing gently before he pushes on hand into Webster.

"I swear."

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I swallow hard as I wait for him and spread my legs and hitch my hips up, breathless and undone with too many emotions to speak of as I stare at him with need in my expression. "Joe," I exhale, catching his gaze with a hand. "I love you," I say firmly. "I love you."

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With two fingers deep inside him, Joe gives him the brightest, pureest smile he can muster.

"I love you too," he murmurs, bending his head to catch his lips, pushing deeper, twisting his wrist just so.

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Something like a burst of warmth blossoms at my chest and it catches me off-guard as to how pleasant it feels, how safe and welcoming and how much I can relax in Joe's arms, kissing him and parting my lips as a moan escapes me at the stretch inside, at his fingers. "Joe," I whine softly against the kiss. "Liebling," I get out with a hitch, shifting to try and push forward to coax his fingers deeper.

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"I'm getting there," says Joe, pushing his fingers deeper, following instruction, bending his head to drop a kiss to Web's chest, one then another, his own hips hitching with just plain want.

"Christ."

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My hair has grown back in with the same thickness and roundabout the same color as had been there before Joe had gone to work and what really boggles my mind is that it's been that long since he did it. Time seems to slip away now and if I really stop to think, I know that we've been together like this over four months now. "I had this..." I speak, voice hitching and breaking, "...this dream about you, when we were in Austria. About you in the water. About you seducing me..."

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"Mmmhmm..."

Joe presses his fingers deeper, his lips working against Web's chest, heat of his skin against the brush of hair.

"Tell me."

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My back arches under the touch of his lips and words and breaths keep getting choked in my throat, unable to come out. "We were sleeping doors down, but I went out sometimes at dawn for swims. Thought maybe, maybe you'd be there. Dreamt..." I squirm and shift, wanting to jump to the next part of this routine. "I dreamt you were waiting for me. We had sex in the water."

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Joe pulls his fingers out and he shifts onto his knees, stroking his dick, his eyes closed while he's listening to Web talk. He shifts between his legs and presses against him, into him, deep in one long push.

"Jesus, don't stop."

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"Thought I was supposed to shut up," I say simply and quietly, in the midst of a sharp gasp that comes from him pushing into me. It's trailed by a soft moan and I grip onto his forearms, nails digging half-moons in fair skin.

I close my eyes and swallow another sound that might suspiciously come out like a squeak. "Just where it was shallow enough. F'course, in m'dream," I gasp, words slurring. "We were floating without effort."

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He groans at the press of Web's nails into his skin, dropping his head, looking for a kiss, all words forgotten. He pushes into Web, thrusts hard and quick, keeping the rhythm, fucking him into the mattress just liked he'd asked for.

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My chin lifts up and meets his lips halfway for a long kiss, exhausted and needy at once and I sigh against his mouth while my body reacts faster than this slow intimate pace of kissing, hips snapping up with every thrust. God, I need you, I think, and don't even realize that I say it.