[For Chase]

[thewordofweb]

The snow has begun to fall in such a way that I've been driven back to civilization. It's put me right back where I started and now I wake up to a daily reminder of all the things I've lost. It's like the weather is telling me that no matter how hard I try and escape this, how fast I try and put the past behind me, it's always there when I open a new door.

Sweets is long gone, an annotated footnote in my past, but I think that being driven back to where I started is a sign that I need to go back to square one with other things, as well. This is how I've found myself across from the woman, unsure of seeing a female for my issues, but I need to talk to someone.

"Have you gone over Dr. Sweets' notes?" I ask, after a long silence becomes unbearable.

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I raise a brow at that and have to remember that she's new in my life and that she won't instinctively know everything about me in the wink of an eye. "I'm...not entirely natural at being charming and easy-going. I tend to be something of a difficult man, so...my relationships with other people aren't exactly the best on a good day."

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"Is it easier that way, do you think?" Chase asked. "Not to get too close to people?" She paused and then added, "Though I imagine that you endear yourself to despite being... difficult, tend to be closer to you in the end. Like your boyfriend."

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"My ex-boyfriend," I correct quietly, because I'm under no delusion that our relationship continues now that he's gone. No matter where he is, we're not a couple anymore. He's either home in a land of intolerance or he's back to a war of horrid crimes and disgusting acts of humanity. "And I don't know, I've never really had close friends. I'm sure it would be lovely to be close with people, but my personality never permitted me the honor."